The Pain Behind The Smile

"I know better..."  

That's what I keep telling myself.  

"It'll all be okay one day."  

Is the hope I cling onto. 

I push the plate of untouched food away as I hold your picture to my chest in pain. 

Why did you leave me here this way? 

My heart keeps crying. 

I'm left alone with no one knowing the agony my heart is in. 

Looking at your picture, I gently touch your face with my finger as the tears stream down. 

I still hear your voice telling me that I'm beautiful and an amazing girl. 

It keeps me from drawing the blade. 

"You should know you are not alone." 

Is what they all say. 

Do they even know? 

I don't care for my path, anyways. 

I thought it so clear, the life I wanted. 

But since you have gone, I can't even find the stars at night. 

The moon has shattered, and the sun has blackened. 

All the light I came to know, all of it has gone away. 

You were the one that I came to know that would hold my hand on the way. 

The trees that mocked me, you kept them at bay. 

I'm trying to smile, so your spirit can know, that I'll be alright. 

The king you left behind is struggling, 

His queen won't stop lying and casting darkness. 

The prince has yet to learn his way. 

And the princess has tried to act like nothing has changed. 

I'm trying, I truly am. 

To aid their path like you wanted me to. 

The pain keeps my heart bleeding, 

The tears hidden by the hair I cannot trim, 

For fear they'll see the girl behind the mask, 

See the pain, behind my smile. 

I need you to know, 

That I'll be okay. 

I'm just trying to find my way. 

Why did you leave me here like this? 

So I can face this pain, alone. 

I'm smiling you see? 

"The pain means nothing to me." 

The tears have run dry. 

The light has left my eyes. 

The walls have crumbled down. 

I will find my way on my own.

Second Hand to a Lost Love

Alright. So I haven't written in a while... Update.. Got my heart broken, fell in love again, now it appears my heart might shatter again. I've known this boy for several years and finally decided to agree to date him. Everything was going heavenly, but perhaps I was living in a high. I know I'm normally giving out advice, but this time I am at a loss of words. How does someone react when the person they love calls them, crying, about their ex that came before you? I can feel the sores in my heart beginning to bleed again from the pain to think that they might still be in love with that person and just using you to get over the pain. I feel torn because I want to believe his words when he says he's over her, but no one cries with such pain in their voice like he had unless they loved the person. Guys, it may seem strange, but I really could use with some help... Anyways, I'll try to write more in the future.
                            -Forever and Always, Love-Hate Girl.

Death in Paradise

Alright! Normally I would never spread so much hate but the bottle needs to be shattered. Most won't understand who but things have become tense. She... She has driven me mad. My entire life I learned that I must share and care for my siblings and others. My latest sibling has come from a home where she lived as the only child and as much as she claims, she knows nothing of sharing! We have to share a room yet she barks at me if I even consider leaving something lying about but she creates a disaster in our room. As if that was not enough she doesn't thank me for what I do. I help her in her relationship, I clean the room when she is away so she can have it nice and neat when she returns tired, and after we got our own Xbox I got her back to where she last played. I replayed an entire game for her! No thank yous. I've grown tired of her taking all the credit for cleaning while she blames me for a mess and constantly using me as a verbal punching bag. I cannot stand this forever, yet I'm forced to keep silent and pray each night she will finally learn. So much for having advice for everything... Sorry for the rants.
                -Forever yours,
                   Love-Hate Girl

World Stupidity

When will people learn. In history we watched a movie and it spoke about 9/11... America is a sleeping dragon. You poke the dragon and it will burn you. Russia is a giant that will stomp out what challenges it. Every nation will defend themselves yet still idiots feel that because someone does not hold the same government or religion then that person needs to be struck down. Useless wars that stain the future and for what? There's no prize, there will never be a real victory. So just cut it out. I want to say I was there when the world was finally at peace. When there is no war, no conflict, and no hostility, then there will be a prize that will seem like a gift from all gods of every religion.

Lazarus : The Rebirth

I have returned from my silent darkness. Many many things I have to share. First off: finals... They suck. I'm sure we all agree. Next: The need to change, and man have things changed. We will not go forth on that this post. Just wanted to inform everyone I have returned and things are going well. Forever yours, truely and dearly, Love-Hate Girl

Humanity Apocalypse

Alright... I know I haven't said much in awhile. So here's how my sight has changed. Humanity, it's becoming a deadly disease. Everyone jokes about the cruelty. Nothing is funny anymore. How many must suffer? There may be an end of the world as the governments of the world finally press the trigger on their weapons. Lives lost, wars brutal. No where safe. I cry at night as the injustice and pain of being human takes over my heart. The small purity left inside of me that is called innocence, gone. The last peaceful, sacred thought shattered. I can no longer handle the expectations placed upon my shoulders, nor do I want them anymore. How can anyone expect a single person to be happy and caring everyday without support? How can anyone expect someone to speak to a person who has hurt them time and time again, someone who has tried to take their happiness away, yet are expected to speak to them when that person sheds a small tear. This injustice has stolen my soul and I will not handle it anymore. There is no love today, nor will there be for awhile. The werewolves howls have become sad, the vampires no longer drink blood, the Earth no longer friendly for one of its beloved daughters, one of its greatest protectors, has finally fallen to the corruption of humanity, and now there is no hope.

Challenge!

Alrighty! Here's a challenge to my beloved readers. I am going to give you an opening to a story. I want to her your opinions and want you to write your version of this. Now here's the thing, this story is in the eyes of you! You have one magical ability and are part of a secret agency created to protect the dreams of others and stop an evil man who controls nightmares. He has escaped... What will you do? Now here's the opening.

A Teenagers Secret: The Nightmare Returns
My head ached, my throat felt closed, my chest burned as I failed to receive oxygen. I heard barely through the headset as my teammate called my name. I reached, stretching my fingers as far as they could go in one final attempt to stop the monster that threatened my life. The lights flicked on and I felt its hold vanish.
Gasping for air, I finally spoke to my frightened colleague, "I'm fine now..."
I could hear their sigh of relief behind my pounding heart. Peering around the room, I frowned, my family clueless to the fact that I risk my life for them...


Now go! See what story you can make up with that. Make a blog if you haven't and comment, letting me read your blog, then once all the contestants are in I will have them judged and in one of my following posts I will announce the winner!