"I know better..."
That's what I keep telling myself.
"It'll all be okay one day."
Is the hope I cling onto.
I push the plate of untouched food away as I hold your picture to my chest in pain.
Why did you leave me here this way?
My heart keeps crying.
I'm left alone with no one knowing the agony my heart is in.
Looking at your picture, I gently touch your face with my finger as the tears stream down.
I still hear your voice telling me that I'm beautiful and an amazing girl.
It keeps me from drawing the blade.
"You should know you are not alone."
Is what they all say.
Do they even know?
I don't care for my path, anyways.
I thought it so clear, the life I wanted.
But since you have gone, I can't even find the stars at night.
The moon has shattered, and the sun has blackened.
All the light I came to know, all of it has gone away.
You were the one that I came to know that would hold my hand on the way.
The trees that mocked me, you kept them at bay.
I'm trying to smile, so your spirit can know, that I'll be alright.
The king you left behind is struggling,
His queen won't stop lying and casting darkness.
The prince has yet to learn his way.
And the princess has tried to act like nothing has changed.
I'm trying, I truly am.
To aid their path like you wanted me to.
The pain keeps my heart bleeding,
The tears hidden by the hair I cannot trim,
For fear they'll see the girl behind the mask,
See the pain, behind my smile.
I need you to know,
That I'll be okay.
I'm just trying to find my way.
Why did you leave me here like this?
So I can face this pain, alone.
I'm smiling you see?
"The pain means nothing to me."
The tears have run dry.
The light has left my eyes.
The walls have crumbled down.
