Emotions, the safety breaks of our life.

Alright. Ever feel so bad that you can't help but feel like you're dying? Well as cold as that feeling is, it's just your body letting you know it's lost the addiction you have been feeding it. Whether its a drug you lost or if you had gotten your heart broken. That feeling reminds you that your alive. Believe it or not, it's a good thing. It's a step in the right direction. Now I'm guessing to are confused, that's okay for I have an example to give, and believe it or not, it is personal so try not to criticize. This happened a few years ago. I was young, oblivious to what love felt like. How really relationships were like. I met a boy, three years older than me. He managed to get me to agree to go out with him, but I knew nothing about him! All my friends told me he was trouble, but being naive I didn't listen. I thought the relationship was perfect, but it was the worst thing I had ever felt. I kept getting this gnawing feeling that made me agitated and angry easily. I started getting in fights and I couldn't understand what was wrong with me! Turns out that what he had been doing to me had subconsciously began making me abusive. He would tell me I'm amazing then would whip around and emotionally abuse me. Telling me that I'm stupid, or saying that no one but him would love me, sad fact was, I believed him. My body tried to tell me to get out of that relationship, cause I didn't realize it at first but I was actually starting to harm myself. I stopped eating so I would become thinner and more lovable. It was a huge mistake. Finally I couldn't ignore the gnawing pain and I told him, he screamed at me and threatened to hurt me. I was scared. When he realized what he had done, he broke up with me in a small act of kindness. I never spoke to him again. Though my body felt terrible, it was trying to protect me, even when I thought I could handle it. That's what our bodies do. They protect us. That's why we feel heart break and feel like we're dying. Our bodies are trying to repair itself after what we had been through. It may sting for some time, but everything will get better. So to all of you feeling the pain of a break up and heart break, it WILL get better, so keep your chin up. -Your Not-So-Troubled Soul, Love-Hate Girl